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So freshmen year ended a week ago and wow, it past by in a blink of an eye. I still remember not knowing anybody and unfamiliar with my surroundings. It's  so sad seeing time pass by so quick. I mean, we're already sophomore and summer always zoom by. It's crazy ! I didn't really make the most out of my freshmen year, I really regret that. I should've done more extracurricular stuff and events, then I would've met more people... Oh well, sophomore year now. I'm enjoying summer a lot. Chill summer classes, but the downfall would be not going to Vegas this year :( I'm taking 2 classes and there's a cute guy in my class ^^ but I know nothing will happen I'm so god damn shy and not outgoing. I can't just be funny and talkative without making things awkward. I hate that about myself. Yeup. Haven't been blogging much lately. I hate that -.- if only I kept up after winterbreak... I can really see how I have changed the past few months. But yeah, I'm lazy and I procrastinate like crazy and I'm not commited to anything I do. So disappointed in myself :( I really have to improve next year. Not kidding. My mom found my report card, she saw all my bad grades.. So uhm schools tomorrow and I really want to get to school early. I'm like always just on time like exactly or late. why can't I  be early ? Anyways, good night ;) I haven't made such a long post in awhile.

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This makes me so sad. April 29, 2011; single-ling me out, the ONLY one who got cut. It makes me sad and bitter. WHY? I don't think i'm the worse nor am i the best. But, this other girl, made first cut. How can you be so cruel? Even if you don't want me on the team, at least let me make 1st cut? then cut me off on 2nd cut? Atleast that's more sincere. Haven't you seen me going to all the clinic days, leaving late all tired and sore, without any ride but the bus? I'm committed and i want it SOSOSO bad. It's not like i'm not willing to learn or improve. I want to. I really do. It just makes my heart hurt that I'm the ONLY one who didn't make it. :( It's very sad. Exactly 20 people on the team, just like you wanted, yet i'm not. I'm very disappointed in you. I thought you had eyes to see who really want to be on and those who just want to be on because of the 'title.' This kinda killed my day. Those who i had told will probably laugh at me. I feel bitter and it'll probably not go away. I'm going to look on the bright side ( since there's so much more people worse than me, i shouldn't even whine and be grateful i'm healthy and alive ) and join next year. I will keep on joining till senior year. &if i really don't make it, somethings really wrong, or just like i had guessed, the coach hates me. I'm grateful to have this experience, but coach, next time, don't just cut 1 person & a person whose actually determined to help the team and improve any way possible. :) Thank you !


I really need a moodkiller. LASER, please be perfect <3 ! I'm waiting for you ^^ I have a feeling you'll be amazing.

I WANT SO MANY THINGS ! My heart's never content. :(

April 5, 2011 i finally realized how you see someone and then the next day you just lose them. I finally felt that feeling that i took for granted. I mean. WOW. Life is so ... unfair sometimes. so is the world and people. It's cruel. He's away, isolated in a place where i'm prohibited to enter. :( Now, all i can do is wait. Wait for him to come back. I promise i won't start any fight and arguments and take steps back if he picks one. I realllllllly miss him in my life. Everyday i wait and wait, it just doesn't feel the same anymore. i need you to ' cause ' drama in the house, pick fights with me, and come into my room and bother me. ( not the huge fights tho ) -.- But yeah, i ' miss ' you.  LOL ! >< can't believe i just said that, but yeah, i do.

My Spring Break's ending :( I guess the only accomplishment i have is finishing most of my Eng movie. ( final ) It was pretty fun hanging out with them :) I didn't buy anything or went shopping besides window shopping -.- i didn't see anything i wanted :(

I srsly want more new clothes ! i can't wait. everyday i wake up and look for something to wear when i already have A LOT of clothes.  -.-
WANT :
- army green cargo jacket
- jean jacket
- lacey, ruffley, pattered, bows designed crop tops
- more cream, pale pink, beige, nude, earthy tone clothes.
- plain cardigans
- new shoes? heels ( wedges ) moccasins, ect... fringe !
- floral dresses with soft colors
- skirts and shorts
- neckalces/ accessories/ bags
- more shoes !! i always wear my white shoe -.-
- new swimsuit/ baithing suit
- new flip flops and sandals
- leggings/ jeggings !

Once again, so much going on.

Start of my spring break, i got into a BIGG fight with my brother. Then i got into a 'guilt fight' with my sister. She kept on snooping through my stuff and messing my room up, so i got pissed and threw her shit on the ground. Then we pretty much just got into a big argument and confronted eachother. SHE STILL DIDN'T GIVE ME BACK MY WHITE STRIPED BLAZER. So the fight's not over yet. -.- that mf bitchhhhhh ! Plus the internet at home sucks.

Getting back on blogging. My internet at home died -.- so i can only hopefully blog on the weekends.

March, 19, 2011 SPRING WARDROBE - WANTTT !

LACE LACE LACE & BEIGE BEIGE BEIGE. i don't think i'll get enough of it.

lacey woven scarf, how cool is that? :)

Omg, If i really bought this it would be so awesome ! I don't think anyone has these kinds of moccasins at school. I WOULD DIE FOR THIS ! <3

Fringes and tassels; i can totally imagine myself wearing this :)

MORE FRINGE <3 &again, i don't think anyone at school has these. it would be so cool if i were the only one who have these. ^^

DEMIN. I'm liking the trend. I definetly want one this spring :p

I saw a blogger wearing it and it totally change my perspective on this cute jacket. I has puffy sleeves, lined, and the ruffles on the back. WANNNT !

Cute oxfords and the color ! :) Too bad i couldn't find these in stores -.- i only see black and brown...

cuteeee ! everyone needs a cute top in their wardrobe, including me ! :)

I haven't been up to for several reasons, mainly just LIFE. i know it's so vague, but i'm stressed and recently i can't be myself around this one person -.- I am stressed. I have to think about that 'he' might think of y actions and i don't like that. :( I'll posts more from now on ( i hope)

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Other than school and peer pressure. i got family issues too.

Let me begin-

My sister recently took $100 dollar from me in H&M credits. As you guys know, I LOVE LOVE LOVE that store. And she dared to take it from me. What kind of human is she. So recently I haven't ben shopping as much as I used to, which is great. But when she uses it ( my card ) to buy her clothes, it gets to me. It's my money, I made me, &why do I have to let you use it? So yeah, i'm trying to take it back from her before  it's all used up. THAT BITCH -.- I will get even with her uglyass face. ( i'm only speaking the truth ) I don't know why but, shopping relieves me, I feel good. After a day of school, i want to go shopping. And H&M just unexpectally just have my sense of style and they offer a broad range of clothes in many variety of styles. Plus, they always have my size, unlike forever21. so yes. other than all the drama. i always got school and homework and tests and more studying.

An alright Birthday :)