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So freshmen year ended a week ago and wow, it past by in a blink of an eye. I still remember not knowing anybody and unfamiliar with my surroundings. It's  so sad seeing time pass by so quick. I mean, we're already sophomore and summer always zoom by. It's crazy ! I didn't really make the most out of my freshmen year, I really regret that. I should've done more extracurricular stuff and events, then I would've met more people... Oh well, sophomore year now. I'm enjoying summer a lot. Chill summer classes, but the downfall would be not going to Vegas this year :( I'm taking 2 classes and there's a cute guy in my class ^^ but I know nothing will happen I'm so god damn shy and not outgoing. I can't just be funny and talkative without making things awkward. I hate that about myself. Yeup. Haven't been blogging much lately. I hate that -.- if only I kept up after winterbreak... I can really see how I have changed the past few months. But yeah, I'm lazy and I procrastinate like crazy and I'm not commited to anything I do. So disappointed in myself :( I really have to improve next year. Not kidding. My mom found my report card, she saw all my bad grades.. So uhm schools tomorrow and I really want to get to school early. I'm like always just on time like exactly or late. why can't I  be early ? Anyways, good night ;) I haven't made such a long post in awhile.

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This makes me so sad. April 29, 2011; single-ling me out, the ONLY one who got cut. It makes me sad and bitter. WHY? I don't think i'm the worse nor am i the best. But, this other girl, made first cut. How can you be so cruel? Even if you don't want me on the team, at least let me make 1st cut? then cut me off on 2nd cut? Atleast that's more sincere. Haven't you seen me going to all the clinic days, leaving late all tired and sore, without any ride but the bus? I'm committed and i want it SOSOSO bad. It's not like i'm not willing to learn or improve. I want to. I really do. It just makes my heart hurt that I'm the ONLY one who didn't make it. :( It's very sad. Exactly 20 people on the team, just like you wanted, yet i'm not. I'm very disappointed in you. I thought you had eyes to see who really want to be on and those who just want to be on because of the 'title.' This kinda killed my day. Those who i had told will probably laugh at me. I feel bitter and it'll probably not go away. I'm going to look on the bright side ( since there's so much more people worse than me, i shouldn't even whine and be grateful i'm healthy and alive ) and join next year. I will keep on joining till senior year. &if i really don't make it, somethings really wrong, or just like i had guessed, the coach hates me. I'm grateful to have this experience, but coach, next time, don't just cut 1 person & a person whose actually determined to help the team and improve any way possible. :) Thank you !


I really need a moodkiller. LASER, please be perfect <3 ! I'm waiting for you ^^ I have a feeling you'll be amazing.