Just ordered from Forever21 ! <333 =) can't wait to get it.

i want to buy so much things at forever. >_< only bad thing is that they only give back store credit, i'm scared that if i wait for a day, the stuff i want would be gone :(

I love love love her outfit ! i want her baggg, i've been looking for one for awhile now. anyone tell me any places for one? =) thankkkks!

bought my homecoming shit and a new leather jacket ! loving it, so much that i might even return my trench coat for it lol !

deliccciousss!

cutieeees! <3

guesss whattt? i made enemies already. greeeat -.-

massive studying to do. I cannot afford to do bad on my next geo test. i just cant! &now, ms. lo's freaking class. i hate her class. annoying and stupid. and bio, need to get skittles =o

need the floral topppp !!!!!! >_<

cuteeee <3

i want the shirt and the jacket !!

love her outfit !!! <3

Life is unfair. You put someone first who puts you second. You study your ass off for a final only to get a B in the class when you deserved an A. You give 110% to someone in a relationship when they only give 40%. You’re there for your best friend at 3 a.m. when they need it the most & the next day they don’t pick up their phone. You give something your all & sometimes get little to nothing back. You care so much about someone who doesn’t care enough about you to say hi once in a while. You give someone your time & they give you “sorry, I’m busy”. It seems like you’re giving everyone everything & they’re just walking away with it.

not getting good enough grades -.-

Today at gym, i felt like puking. Uhggg, and so many people were sick. the spirits were gone :( After gym, didn't know there was a free mod for me -.- waited outside class looking at francisco's yearbook, had a good laugh :) saw some people that loved and hated. Cindy, jess, and me were all standing together but we all had our little side conversations, ahahah. i like that. :) Then, passing period, hahahah i saw carly &i was telling her how i loved her 7th grade picture, &i did ! then it was awkward cus i saw someone, not going to mention. yeaaah, modern world, we color and stuff. it was hard, so many small countries, grrrr. >:\ hope i did great and get it on the board this time :D next comes reg, and thank god someone there also has my english teacher, who i dont like. she sucks at teacher and goes off topic with the students and actually goes on and on until we tell her to. -.- annoyingggg. so i asked help w/hw from nolan, and in return he gets to borrow my book for english class. :) hehehe ^^ thennnnn, lunch. me and brian again ( we're friends ) chicken nuggets, ya digggg? copied jacky's bio hw. :@ ikr, i'm such a bad lowell student, idgafk? and so forth, bio, it was alright, we did lab then some reviews. i dont know i feel like someone hates me in that class -.- she was nice at first when we met then shes like hella irritating me and shit. wtf do you want? just confront it to me. i dont care okay? just say what you want to say pussy. whateversss, then art. watched a movie, boring as fuck. i dont want people looking at my project, it sucksssss. :( then chinese, somehow i like that class other than the oral tests. i fail at it even though im chinese. -.- funny shit going on with kavin, mitchell, and joanne. lmfao ! and screw that freacking mitchell covering my mouth, its something called 'freedom of speech' i get to say whatevert the fuck i want. so fuck off bitch, you gaaaay. i dont have anything against that tho. but forreals, keep yo' hands to yourself, boy. Geo, and again that person in there. -.- i died a little inside when i knew she got a better grade than me, not just a better grade but a dramatically better grade than me. i neeed help and tutor and shit with gro, i hate math period !!! Ii'm not satisfy with the grade i have in geo right now. actually, i'm not satisfy with all the grades i have in all my classes, and yeah. tha's how hard lowell is. eat it. it was freaking cold in the morning but then later the day its so hot that i was sweating, and i was wearing my Uggs -.- meet up with jenny, but i thought she ditched me. walked to the M; saw jennicay, we talked about geo and how we hate our grades. jenny then comes up to me and kicks me -.- that bitch. but i finally meet up with her. we got off at powell cus she had to turn in her resume for something. it took us 30 minutes to find it. &when all hopes are gone, i went to get a starbucks ! <3 she was gonna leave but that lady finally picked up, like gees wtf are you guys? dont pick up your phones and expect business? lmfaooo. she found it, we both met up at the 30. went back to mommy's office. chilled, got on andy's comp. andy came back from chinese school, we got the car, went home, played runescape, did homework, procratinate more, and now i'm here and its freaking 11 -.- mhk peace guys, i'm outtt ! :)

"You want the truth? Well, here it is. Eventually, you forget it all. First you forget everything you learned – the dates of wars and the Pythagorean Theorem. You especially forget everything you didn’t really learn, but just memorized the night before. You forget the names of all but one or two of your favorite teachers, and eventually you forget those, too. You forget your junior year class schedule and where you used to sit and your best friend’s home phone number and the lyrics to that song you must have played a million times. And eventually, but slowly, you forget your humiliations – even the ones that seemed indelible, just fade away. You forget who was cool and who was not, who was pretty, smart, athletic, and not. Who went to a good college. Who threw the best parties. Who had the most friends. You forget all of them. Even the ones you said you loved, and the ones you actually did. They’re the last to go. And then once you’ve forgotten enough, you love someone else."

CRAMPING LIKE FUCK RIGHT NOW. IM IN SO MUCH PAIN  !!!!!!!!! FMLFMLFML! SUCKS BEING A GIRL.  ARGGG ! FMLLLLLLLLLLL.

     Wore my new jacket ! <3 Loved it except the it itched me -.- but w.e i love itttt ! Cramps all day, thank god no gym, some people had to run the mile. lol regular ass day. Didn't eat lunch cus i studied my but off for the bio quiz that i forgot about until Nolan told me in reg. thank god <333 love ya!! heheh ^^ i think i got 4 wrongs tho :9 switched the 2 of them and total of 2 pictures so = 4 D: W.e atleast i tried, not gonna cry over it. mr. johnson was so generous to give us extra credit. Then, art. mhmm, i'm starting to hate that class cause you know, i'm NOT creative. I'm probably the most boring person you'll ever meet. -.- ikr.... then we have to go over everyone's assignment, and i hate mine. going to be hella embitarrassing. >_< Walked with jennifer and mandy to my next class. <333 chinese was quiet today, we didn't want to be split up again so we shut up today lol xD it's alright, can't complain, the teacher's hella chillll. mhhm, geo , quiz was alright for me. but i know i'll do bad as usual. everytime i think i did okay, it always turns out to be an F -.- Math is like my enemy. SWORN ENEMY. i always got bad grade in math ever since i was little. i just dont get it no matter what. &tutor doesn't work for me. waait let me rephrase that, it works but not much progress and its a waste of money. Mr. Evans let us out early if you finished the quiz. Everyone frm the back of the room literally discussed the quiz outside of his room, it was so hilarious ! love you guys. =] i hope what euguine ( kenvin) said is rightttt - crosses fingers - >_< then i left, rode the muni back to mommy's office. got on the computer and yadiyadiayaddddhdhd waited till andy got back. got the car and shit. then fucking andy bothered me when i was trying to sleep. fuck him and his shit. he always start shit with me and my mom always think its me. NEVER ASSUME ITS HIM FIRST. so fuck her too. that biased bitch. -.- actually fuck everyone in that car. no one gaved a fuck and just blamed everything on me saying fight doesn't happen with just one person blahh blah blahh. NO DUH it doesn't, somehting has to bother someone first. &stop assuming its me all the fucking time. fuck that shit you bitch, just cause he's your son you like him more. fuck you ! reply on him then and don't come to me when you need hlp with phone calls or bills or reading your damn mail, or helping you spell a god damn word. I'm only human so i make mistakes but its not always me. get your fucking facts straight before assuming &that goes for everyone. got home, just went on the computer. crappy ass internet. Even thought i didn't eat much the whole day, just 3 spoons of oatmeal in the morning, no lunch :(, 1/3 of my sandwich, it tasted baddd  today o.O, then ate half a banana and a whole peach. I'm hungry but i dont have the appetite. >_< & NOOO I'M NOT ANEREXIC. screw that shit. I just have fast metabolism that's all, so stop assuming. i've seem way skinner girls than me and their waaaay older too. -.- so yeah, basically my day.

My goal for tonight -

• finish as much homework/extra credit as possible tonight !! i'm gonna be busy the whole weekend, so no runescape. ahhaha lol. Mhk, peaceee guys love ya !!! <3 =)

Went to stones to meet up with jenny.

- got a new leather jacket
- Strawberry creme frappp ! <33
-and a white Sephora liner

Short day and i was hungrryyyy -.-

&YESSSS NOT DRESSING FOR GYM TOMORROW !!!

Today at Lowell was half day; ikr.. Lowell's the only school with the craziest schedules :D <33 so i left @ like 12 and went to stones. returned a few stuff and bought:

- a bomber jacket
- striped cardigan
- 2 YSL pencil liner
- a waist belt.
- burt's Bees lip balm

okay, so a quick summary of my day:


     So, gym was alright. did the sit-and-reach thingy and tomorrow is the MILE. -.- Fuckkkkk it. what i'm really scared about is getting cramps while running and what if i got an even worse time than my practice. I'm screwed. overall it was alright. =] then moderworld, i always want to sleep in that class. so freaking boring. the teacher talks in a monotone. uhg ! &i don't even know what i'm getting that's why i'm getting extra credit in his class. But i think he likes me, cus a actually talk and participate. we watched a boring ass movie. i attempted to sleep but i sit in front of the room in the MIDDLE ! but whatever, the people in it is cool, i likeeee =D Then regggg, its peer mentor daaaaaay, Tuesdayyy wooo! Short as usual, i tried studying for Bio, didn't get very far tho.. o.o It was short and fun, i just hate one person in it. Gets on my nerve and think she's always correct. i need to find new people to hang out with. i don't wanna be fake anymore and pretend i like her. that's stupid srsly, i'm done with that shit. it's highschool and i'm going to be true to myself. then i 'walked' with her to to our classes. Englishhh, it's kinda okay. i hate how we go off topic all the fucking time. &when we go off topic, she discusses the topic. like wtf? get back on track, and we have a test tomorrow too. we didn't finish the story but we're still having a test tomorrow. it's always 2 fucking people that always make class disruptions. =( so fuck the test tomorrow, i wouldn't be surprised if i got a bad grade. stupid people -.- and the teacher. she says unnecessary stuff. then lunchhh, i noticed me and brian were matching =D ahhahahaha coincidence ftw! Lunch; had a nice conversation w/ crystal and brian on how messed up english class is -.- i was off track so i didn't study for bio till like last minute, i rushed. &didn't remember anything. Bio, test was not so good. i already know my grade. a C/D -.- regret not studying as much. =( but w.e what's done is done. freshmen year, just have funnnn ya feel me? =) then art, it's fun and chill as usual. Finally met mandy, wanted to talked to her hella long ago. just didn't wanna walk up to her and introduce myself. it's hella awkward, so when we were walking with jennifer, i just waved and we just talked. yay ! =D uhm, chinese test. it was alright. i got 1 wrong so far. rushed through it too fast. -.- then Geo, as always i fail. but it was alright. yadiyadiayayay... it's alright, not boring b/c if you daydream for a sec, you're gonna be lost no doubt. went to club. ate brownies and my sandwich that my mommy made, it was yummy ! =] then left and saw angel, we talked the whole time when i was riding the bus which was about an hour. <3 pretty much my day.

&&now, i'm suppose to be studying for my hard ass english test but instead i'm on the computer. -.- Fml. &fuck procrastination. mhk, Peace guyssss ! =] <3

Finally decided -

- not going to debate; instead bridge club.
-Finally returning my forever shit. ( maybe even wetseal ) i don't have any fucking time and i'm lazy -_-
-STUDYYYYYYY !

Might get a JOB ! =D <333

Can't believe school's tomorrow. On tuesday, i'm going to have to make a BIG decision. My weekend? it was lame. Unproductive. &i didn't study for anything. On the computer playing runescape. -.- i'm such a nerd. fuckk it. LOL ! I'm quitting in 25 days, that's why i'm using the most out of the days. So, uhm i did laundry, ate, sleep, tried to study. That's pretty much my weekend. STUCK AT HOME.

Next week plans:

P.e - running the freaking mile again ! -.-

Modernworld - Oh shit ! i just remembered i didn't do HW D:  fuckkkk ~!!

Reg - <333333333

English - wanted to finish 'the most dangerous game' but just noticed no book ! -.-

Lunch - lakeeeeshoreeee babyyyyy, i want a Nubi's landyard !

Bio - that class scares me, but it's so funn <3 i want to be ahead in HW, but i'm failing lol.

Art - Chill class, just don't know what to do with my final.

Chinese - ehh, chilllll classss ! <33 love it. i just hope i'm getting an A; i deserve it cus i've been going to chinese school for hella long.

Geo - Funny and chill class but FUCK i'm failing. Last week's test nailed me HARD. :(

Highschool is where every decisions count and matter. So if you screw up once, your dead. I'm still debating whether i should join this club or not. Since it's Freshmen year, i should just have fun and relax.

"Being a teenager is hard, harder than some can imagine, harder than someone can remember. It’s those years you’ll never forget, though you sometimes wish you could wipe away. They seem to last forever, but when you look back, they went by so fast. Being a teenager is falling in love too fast and too hard, talking for hours on the phone to your bestfriends. Being talked about and talking about others, it’s being guilty when your innocent, its about standing out and fitting in. It’s when you have a million questions that will never be answered. Being a teenager isn’t something you can really describe. We all have our tough times and our cat fights. Everyone goes through something, but being a teenager, that’s when you feel everything at once. When you’re in love, you’re really in love. When you hate someone, you despise someone. When you’re lonely, you’re miserable. Being a teenager is something you have always got to go through and its the best and worst years of your life. Being a teenager isn’t anything, its everything. It isn’t a big deal,it’s a HUGE deal; and while you’re being a teenager, you ought to live it up because this is the one chance, the one time, you’ll be young, and free and careless; because you are only young once. So screw it up because in the end, no one gets out alive anyway."

just finished my hw; Gonna shower, pick an outfit, pack backpack, then sleep and all those shit. i'm actually happy about going to school, hence the waking up part. -.-

LIFE

is tough right now. Not only am i trying to keep my grades, i have to deal with family issues, and my freaking sleeping pattern is so fucked up. FML !