Outfit of the day :
changed into sweats again, it's so comfortable ^^ !

Outfit of the day:

Sorry -.- bad lighting.

                                 I changed into sweats, i was originally wearing jeans ^^

Since i won't be going to any H&M while i'm at Vegas. :( all i can do is browse through H&M's website looking at all the stuff i wish i had. :( SF H&M, wait for me <3 !

Yesterday's outfit of the day; today i went nowhere but went downstairs and get a Starbucks, then stayed in the Hotel room. Pointless day in Vegas.

Quality is horrible, i was too lazy to edit it. Plus it's off a webcam :p I never had one so i thought it was close.

Today's outfit of the day anyways. I got a little bit more dressed up and girly. ;)

Sorry the lighting was kind of bad >.<

I HATE TODAY. sorry guys, a HUGE rant coming up. About all the problems in my life &how my family isn't helping at all. Sometimes they can be the biggest bitches. FML ! probably worst feeling i'll ever experience is today.

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 I'm the youngest. But i don't get spoiled how my older siblings does. My sister gets everything first. The first laptop, the first ipod classic, the first ipod video, and the first itouch. From this day on, i still don't have an ipod. I know i shouldn't complain but why does she get everything first and i get her crappy ipods when she gets the newest ones? WHY?!?! Same with clothings. My parents expects me to get her hand-me-downs. Even though i get her hand-me-downs, it still doesn't fit me. I don't get the dilemma. Our size are WAY off too. She's like a M/L while i'm a XS/S. In H&M, i'm a size 2/4 and she's a 6/8/10. They tell me i'll grow and then i'll fit. yeah, by the time i fit it which i probably still won't because i see some adults buying size 2/4, the style might be out or the clothing might be worn out. I hate it. Exactly why she has more stuff than me. I know she's older and she gets more previledge, but do i get nothing? Whenever i go shopping with my parents she always tag along, like my birthday present, and she even buy more than me. WTF? it's my birthday not yours. On with computers; she broke her laptop, and she gets one right away. It's not even her birthday or the holidays and she gets one. WHY? But me, computerless for 2 months, have to wait and play on a crappy chinese computer. I HAVE to wait till christmas to get my new laptop. &when i wanted to buy the Macbook Air, my dad said it was too expensive. EXPENSIVE? i don't see you complaining when you were buying her ipod classic, new at the time, around $500, her computer that she broke which was about $1200. Mine, a Macbook, which is a good brand, is expensive when you want to get me something? &it has to be on the holidays. Why couldn't you get me one during October or November? You got her one right before school started in August. Now, i'm stuck with a Macbook Pro which i regret getting cause it's the same as my little cousin. he's only 11 and he got a Macbook Pro, same as mine. &i have to get the same when i'm older than him, i should've gotten a Macbook Air. UNFAIR ! My christmas, the only thing i've gotten and i'm not even satisfied with it. i know i shouldn't complain cause my brother got NOTHING yet. But why does jenny get everything and i have to get her leftovers? i know she's older but WHY? Once in awhile is alright, i understand, but ALL THE FUCKING TIME gets me irritated and heated. My dad always give her money when all she does is translate shit, HELLO?, she's suppose to help you, YOU raised her, give her shelter, food, and shatter her with gifts, and now she gets paid for translating simple shit and gets few hundreds? Not only that, she delays that shit too. what i want to say is; WHY DOES SHE GET EVERYTHING FIRST AND THE BEST WHILE I GET HER LEFTOVERS AND THE CRAPPY SHIT. WHEN I WANT SOMETHING NEW FOR THE HOLIDAYS YOU COULD'NT EVEN GET ME WHAT I WANTED AND SAID IT WAS TOO EXPENSIVE. I DIDN'T WANNA HURT YOUR WALLET UNLIKE JENNY SO I BOUGHT THE MACBOOK PRO. I AM SO UNSATISFIED WITH IT THAT I WANT TO RETURN IT AND BUY THE MACBOOK AIR MYSELF. IF I DO THAT, I GOT NOTHING FOR CHRISTMAS AND LOSE $119 FOR OPENING IT. SEE MY POINT? SOMETIMES I HATE MY LIFE. I NEVER GET ANYTHING FIRST. ALL I DO IS SIT AND WATCH PEOPLE IN SCHOOL PLAY WITH THEIR ITOUCH/PHONE WHILE I LOOK AT THEM. I know i shouldn't be complaining and be grateful for everything i have but there comes a point where you just have a limit to things and when it continues on for too long, you just explode.  i cried my eyes out yesterday. when i woke up my eyes were red.

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On to yesterday's shopping experience. I HATED IT ! Shopping for me? for the sake of me? NO ! it wasn't primerely for me but for you and jenny too. 1) for you to go to Treasure Island to check in 2) also for the sake for jenny. Then for me, you went to the wrong mall i wanted to go to, it wasn't even for me and my satisfication. I started crying when we were at TI, but i guess you never noticed. Then we went to Miracle Mile Shop, which i didn't wanna go to. YES, I SAID I WANTED TO GO THERE YESTERDAY BUT NOT TODAY. GUESS YOU WEREN'T LISTENING AGAIN. TYPICAL. walked around and did nothing but look for jenny's itouch case. You said it was for my sake that you had to drive here for me? No, it was for her. Yup, end of discussion. Next time, i will be smart enough. I won't go shopping with jenny. You always focus your attention toward her. It's either i go shopping for myself. Cause most of the things i buy, you don't approve anyways. So pointless. I will go to the H&M flagship myself. I don't need you to drive me. I will go myself with me and my friends when we can drive. Relying on you? wait a lifetime. Every time we're at Vegas we just stay in the hotel and play computer. How it that different in San Francisco? It's the same thing but a different place. &you just bring me to a mall so crappy and not even my choice, you feel like i owe you. NO. Cause i bought nothing. there's nothing to be thankful for. I feel so stupid for tearing up just by writing this. I got FEELINGS too, not just you. I promised myself that i won't waste my tears over this pointless stuff, but i just can't. All this bullshit made such a big impact on my life.  Sometimes i HATE living in this family.  There is constant fighting, yelling, and attitude/mood turnoffs. Plus, i don't feel safe with my wallet or money lying around the house. My thief sister will take it and use it. NOTHING is safe in the house. How ironic is that? LOL. I have to hide my money, or my items. Or else she'll hide it herself and i'll never see it again or use it. YUP, that's the kind of surrounding i live in. & have to be careful if she ruins my shoes or clothes or computer. Even my bed, she throws stuff on it. like rocks or dirty hair balls. She's a messy and dirty person &i have to share rooms with her. It's disgusting. I don't even know why my parents like her more than me. She gets EVERYTHING. my dad gives her random money for her to buy food, clothes, ect. &i get nothing. It's not like my grades are worse than hers and its not like we didn't get into the same highschool. This just gets me so mad. -.- fuck this and fuck my family. @times they will be there to support me through shit happening in my life but they also give me the worst feeling ever. They make me feel like shit. They only like my sister better. She's selfish too. Only cares for herself. If i ask for her help, she'll just say why should i help you? HELLO. you should help me cause we're a family. Guess i'll never have this close family/sibling vibe. Well not in this family atleast. Yes, i know, end of my long rant.

I really want to go to the H&M in the forum shops in Ceasar palace ^^ I hope tomorrow <3 ! I love my daddy !

Outfit of the day

Saturday, Dec 25th, 2010

Outfit of the day:

Finally gonna start posting outfits; webcam pic :)

Okay, so i've been in Vegas for 3/4 days now&i haven't blogged at all. So here it is ^^ Sorry for the delay i was just having so much fun and i was sick. Ik -.- it sucks.

1st day : Grandma's birthday dinner and hotel check in. played ping pong and pool in my cousin's garage.

2nd day: Went bowling ! my first time ^^ I was alright. hehehe ;) didn't see any cute guys. LOL tiffanny ! Then we went to my Auntie's house and ate noodles. YUM. We kinda raided her fridge. we ate ice cream, candy, and cutieees. i drank a gatorade, green tea, and a mocha frap. Oh and Popcorn. Surprisingly i'm still 89lbs. Then dinner @my other Auntie's house. Then back to hotel.

3rd day: Ate breakfast/lunch @chinatown. Then went to fashion show mall with my daddy. I got a new laptop. I was debating whether or not i want a Macbook Air or Macbook Pro. Macbook Pro was cheaper and had a bigger memory. So yeah, got that; &jenny got a itouch. -.- Then back to hotel. We were suppose to go ice skating today. But my Auntie was busy and sleep. I think her shift is tonight too. mhmm :( Tried out my new laptop. I didn't like it that much after i saw William having the same as me. I should've gotten the Macbook Air :( UHG ><

4th day: I PULLED AN ALL NIGHTER WITH TEDDY YESTERDAY AND I'M AWAKE.  But then i slept at 7 and woke back up at 12. We ate breakfast/lunch downstairs. Moved to MGM; unpack. i wanted to go to H&M in planet hollywood, but  was too lazy and procrastinated till my mom came back and eat dinner. after that we watched a concert. I have to say, that concert was really fun. That guy is so funny. I've been to one of his concert before in SF and i liked it a lot too. now, i LOVE him. His personality is so FUNN <3 ^^ I was really impressed how he held the concert up to almost 4 hours long by himself. WOW. My dad's friend gave him a suite @Mandalay Bay. No one wanted to move since it was late. I wanted go to cause 1. i didn't have a table to put my computer on 2. I didn't want to sleep on a messed up bed 3. I heard that gave a fruit basket up in the room. YES, i LOVE snacks -.- &yeah. i'm staying over there by myself with my grandparents. i hope they don't bug me or annoy the fuck out of me. The room is very pretty. ^^ My H&M $5giftcards expired today :( i didn't make it in time, the concert took too long. So yeah. I'm sad. But i'm going tomorrow by myself, which i like cause i don't need to wait for anymore or anyone have to drag me behind, plus i find more stuff by myself than going with people o.o, or my dad. it's only down the block. I'm just hella lazy. I know. today is really long, but I practically did nothing on christmas. except the concert. it was the BOMB :) gonna play more runescape then i'm take a bath ( jacuzzi ^^ ) then sleep. nightynighttt !

I WILL WIN. I won't let you step all over me and do nothing about it. I won't be a fool and just stand there. You start something, i'll help you finish it. I will not lose. I will get back what was mine. I will hurt you back 10x worse. So prepare ^^ Yup, today i won. Next time, realize who you're facing. I'm nice, i trust people, but deeep deeep under i'm insecure, so i won't trust anymore. I trust you, but not all my trust. It's hard to explain, but i won't give you my all or my best effort. You won't reach me, you won't understand me. Take care &next time RECOGNIZE ! okieee ^^ rant done :)

LAS VEGAS for winter break ! i am so excited; out of boring san francisco <3 ^^ Super cold weather, the dope shopping malls, the beautiful hotel lights and decorations, and the FOOOOD ! i can't wait. OH.MY.GOD ! =)

MY family is full of drama. Especially my sister, she only cares for herself.  i hate her.

LAST DAY OF FINALS ! yeeee, so happy. My winter break kinda starts right now LOL. Tomorrow is Winter Fair so practically no class but you need to show up for attendance. ^^ YESSSS ! last class for Ms. Lo =) i hated that class; the only thing i enjoyed was the funny moments. that's all. I hated her voice, her teachings, the way she walks, dress, and her face. she fucking mugssss and treats high schoolers like babies. the hell with her. Go teacher elementary or some shit. But yeaaah, i'm so happy but sad at the same time cause i hate my new schedule for the new semester. I have no 1/2 or lunch. plus i have ms. johnson. killll meeee now ! But yeah, i love homeroom. Playing boxhead with Nolan everrrryday is the bomb. that nigga needs to stop killing me -.- forreals tho. omgg, today katie played 'Grenade' on the computer hella loud. i loved it. that song is so... calming yet it gets you in the mood of dancing. heheh ^^ Geo finals :( i think i failed. -.- i never gotten a B on any of his test before. but yeah, dropped off my Art final. rode the M; got off @montgomery and went into H&M. <3 LOVE ! got a taupe bag, it's quite smallish, but it looks cute ^^ some mittens, beanies, a pearl bracelet with pink lacey material ribbon around it ( really cute and girly ), and a light pink collar ruffled shirt. :) yup, pretty much my day. Oh yeah, right now i'm blogging on my mom's new laptop. hehe ^^ It's so small lol. But it's alright. i like it. now i'm waiting for my fucking sis to leave for her internship so i can have a real desk to play. -.- kayyys, i'm gonna go and waste more time. i'll blog more tomorrow ! WINTER FAIRE ! woohooo :)

FRIDAY UPDATE :

My uglyass sis took my 2 h&m giftcards. Like whaaaatthefuck is wrong with you? you already took the pretty one from me already. CAN YOU LIKE STOP? You took my forever21 giftcards enough already, and now that i don't shop there anymore, you take my h&m now? are you really that low? I'm just trying to get EVEN with you; but you continue on. Are you DUMB in the head? If you don't stop i'll NEVER stop. Bitch, bring it on.  okay, so i woke up like usual. -.- which i regret doing. I should've just brought my bag with me/or my wallet atleast to the bathroom. As i leave the room to wash up, she fucking creep through my stuff and took my shit. Bitch, fuck you. I WILL GET EVEN WITH YOU. I WILL GET BACK ALL MY SHIT. EVEN IF IT MEANS I'LL RETURN YOUR DAMN CLOTHES THAT YOU USED MY MONEY TO BUY WITH. I was going to save up cash for MYSELF to use up in Vegas. But noooooooooooooooo; you had to take it. Atleast i CARE for the family. I use my own money to buy my clothes and all those other stuff and i'm younger than you. LMFAO ! I'm even planning on buying my OWN computer unlike your bitchass that made daddy buy you 2 laptops. I AM ACTUALLY RESPONSIBLE. I don't even have an Ipod except the one andy gave me. But you got the 2 new ones and now you want more? You are so damn selfish. I hope karma hit you, HARD, cause you damn well deserve it. Even thought you are my sister, i shouldn't have said that to you but you really should know someone's limit. The money i saved up for vegas, to the red tags i told you about that you took hella from me, to the trick i taught you about, and the time i asked you to help me return shit and you refused to, you are a bad sister.  I HATE YOU. I think from this situation, i'll have this place in my heart that i hate you. oh yeah, i just remembered, you ALSO took my forever card. okay, now theres more reasons for me to hate you and get back at you 10x worse. i've made up my mind, tomorrow, i'm returning your shit ^^ i can't wait for you to move out ! there will be NO more thief in the house. wooooohooo! =)

i dislike ms. lo. i have many reasons. i'll update later but i need to study for geo finals. thank god, last final then winter break. my chance to get away from all the bad people and meet new ones. & say goodbye to the good ones :( SAY HI TO ME IN THE HALLWAYS ! if i don't say hi back it's cause i'm BLIND. LOL !

First say of finals. I was lateee -.- Walked into MOWO, people started, took the test. It was somewhat easy, but i think i got few wrongs. it was pretty much rushed through, i didn't really double check my answers :( Had hella time left, went to cafetaria. there, i saw jenny. LOL ! i ate breakfast, she studied and i studied. Went to reg, hehehe ^^ i love my new baggg ! Art final was somewhat hard, but i got through it :D I literally sat there for 2hrs but it past by so fast ! then lunch, it was me and kianna's rehersal time for our chinese dialogue. So we made this little skit and stuff. It was so good, but Ms. Li just save us a freaking 95%. I mean i'm not going to complain but i think we deserved better consider the fact that we went up FIRST ! After luncccccch, we practiced in the room. HAHAHAH ! She had this idea of how she'll talk like a diva ( acting/talking like mitchell ) cause i won't give her cola and she gives me attitude. It was so funny that i HAD to crack up and couldn't say my lines. LOL ! We went up first, i was nervous as fuck. UHGG. I skipped one of my line -.- fuck me. But yeah. that acting was awesome. Kianna was really good at acting. Then yeah. our skit was pretty long o_O almost 5minutes while some people had like 2 - 4 minutes. I was VERY proud of us ! Yessss, tomorrow lunch 3 hours -.- i don't even know what to do for that long. But yeah. Ms. Li let us go earlyyyyyyyyy ! like almost an hour, i went back myself. My mom didn't pick me up, so i just rode the bus back. Went to the dentist, waited for my bro, went back to office, went home, traffic, crashed in the car, went home just went to bed, woke up few hours later, ate dinner, watching Macbeth for tomorrow's english finals, about to wash up and sleep, and finally i'm blogging. G'night everyone. This is the LAST week before a new semester ( but i'll truly miss everyone in my classes :(  ) and WINTER BREAK BABBBBBY ! i'm going to vegasss bitches !  ^^ I can't wait, shopping all dayyyyy and eating out, and getting moneyyyyy  <3 Oh, this saturday i'm getting money from this organization ! hehehe ^^ finally going to refill my bank after the past weeks of spendings.

Dear Santa,

This Christmas, may I have one thing?
A boy that will make me smile and fill me with joy. A boy that I can hug and hold onto forever. A boy that will treat me like a princess. A boy that makes me laugh & is there for me when I need him. A boy that doesn't care what I look like without makeup on or when I'm in sweats. A boy that will get along with my family and friends. A boy that I can cuddle with and hold hands with. A boy that will stand up for me when needed. Someone that I can talk with for hours and hours & when there's silence between us, it's not awkward. A boy that will love me for me. I want people to look at us and be jealous. I want my Prince Charming.That's what I want for Christmas. ♥

I thought that was cute ^^ & yepp, it would be nice to have a boyfriend.

Stayed home all day on Saturday. & guess what? i didn't study for shit. I'm so screwed for finals. I just don't give a damn about my grades lately. I ate, waste time on my computer, and slept. I am so unproductive -.-

Then on sunday, i woke up late; my dad was so nice to ask me first if i want to go shopping :) I told him i want a new bag for school cause i'm like the only one ( or almost the only one ) with a backpack. -.- So, yuuup, i tried finding one to my liking but failed. I saw the green/navy one that many people have at school, but my dad didn't like it. He said it was BIG for someone small like me. So yeahh.. but i found A LOT of stuff i liked @h&m today. Oh.My.God; i want their lace top, they look so pretty/flowy. I didn't see one in my size so i didn't get it. I also want another peacoat/trench coat; however you call it. My dad said the material suck, so he told me not to get it. I saw this cream leather jacket that looked pretty nice on me, so i got it. I have a feeling i'll just return it. LOL. Went into more stores to look for a my bag, but unsuccessful. then we went to Tarjayyyy and got a new memory card for my dad's camera. I wanted to get some hair products so i told my dad to go to the hair care aisle. He looked at the hair dyes while i looked at the hair products like hair spray, mouse, conditioner, shampoo, serum, frizz thingys, ect.. I got this one from Tresemme for $3; it's pretty big ^^ Then i got some teeth whitening thingys. it was expensive :( But yup, end of my shopping day. Didn't get much. I tend to get more when i go by myself than with my parents -.- then yeah, ate at my grandmas place and picked up andy. Procrastinated when i got home. didn't start legitly studying till 10? and now its past midnight and i'm blogging. Im a loser. -.- goodnight all. I can't wait till winter break, i've been stressed a lot lately. I need to relax and just look forward to a new semester and just start from there... slowly improving my grades.



These 2 that i can;t find in stores -.-





These are the ones i like, but not crazy over them :P

 Thank god today as FRIDAY <3 ! I'm scared and excited for next week >< New classes means new people <3 ^^ But Arena and finalssss? UHG ! :( I want to dye my ahir now :) i was inspired by Jane-kay hehehe ^^ Peekaboo highlights, light brown, yeahhh? I'll see. It's hella cheap right now, like $2 for a bottle? Yupp, i'll consider it. I walked her home -.- that lazy butt. Then i went back to H&M and looked for baggggs ! :D I got the black versions of the two purses i got. <3 i'm in love ! I also got another BIG black bag. It's ehhh... Too big and funky looking. Going to return and get a new one. Online, it looked so stunning, when i tried it @home. it looks ugly -.- I still can't find these 2 bags in store >:( this little light pink/beige one and this green/khaki green one :( it looks so prettty! i want it so bad! I'll continue looking in stores. You know i first fell in love with H&M's style ( clothings ), and now it's bags, who knows i might fall in love with it's assessories next ^^ I love their bags, but since i'm a short/skinny person, it doesn't always go well with me :( I'm starting to love their shoes, scarves, mittens/legwarmers, kit beanies/hats, and their bracelets/necklaces/earrings ( even thought my ears aren't peirced -.- but they look so pretty, i just want to buy them and keep it lol. )/makeup and bras. Lmao. i think their bras are comparable to Victoria's Secret. I'm going to try it the next time i go ^^ heheh; Tomorrow, staying home and study for finals. Period. i have to get it home  no matter what. >.< Winter break, i can't wait & a new schedule ( meeting new people :D ). I really need a break from lowell -.- that school is shit. i swear, that school brought my grade down so much. :( I think i'm just not trying hard enough or Presidio didn't prep me well enough. Winter break ! i might get my hair done ^^ <3 still deciding. Mhk, i'll sleep now. good night !

WEDNESDAY :
[ ] Chinese Final
[ ] 'The Other Foot' Essay due tomorrow ( still haven't revised it )

THURESDAY :
[ ] 'The Other Foot' Essay due

FRIDAY :
[ ] Chinese pinyin test

MONDAY :
ARENA
( yeeeee, get to sleep in and no school ) ^^

TUESDAY :
[ ] Mowo final on CH 9&11
[ ] Art final ( drawing a still life for 2hour )
[ ] Chinese dialoge final; needs to be 2-3 minutes >.<

WEDNESDAY :
[ ] English final on 'Macbeth' a Shakespeare novel & an in-class essay
[ ] Lunch <-- used for studying next class
[ ] Bio final on everything.

THURESDAY : ( yes final day for final ) ^^
[ ] Gym final on the weight room -.- ( really?!?!?! a GYM final ? )
[ ] Geo final on everything ( i really have to get a decent grade on this ) >.<

FRIDAY :
WOOO! Winter Fair <3 and a regular school schedule :) WINTERBREAK BABYYY ! ^^

Had a geo test, it was our last one of the semester, and my LAST chance to raise up my grade ( other than the Final :( ) &i think i failed it >.< I didn't even feel like going to bridge. Left early and went to DT and look for bagssss. I didn't like much. they were all...small or very |BIG. -.- I found one i liked when i was there. it can be worn 2 ways; cross body or like a purse typa thing. It was green, the pretty green ( in my dictionary. ) But when i just tried it on w/ books inside, it looked...big, wide, and uneven  :( Iuno... I might return it after the whole extended holiday return policy. Why is it so hard finding a cute, pretty, okayish size bag? I'll be going tomorrow AGAIN... unfortunately. Yup, this time i'm going to the H&M outside. I have a feeling that security guard ( the guy standing by the door ) recognize me cause i go in and out a lot, meaning i shop a lot there -.- I know i need to refrain myself from shopping. UHG. -.- I finally decided. I REALLY want the Macbook Air for my Christmas and BIRTHDAY ! :) It costs A LOTTT. If i do buy it, It'll be the wear i waste the most cash. &that means no more shopping for me. :( Yup, i'll do anything for a new laptop !

Today was successful... I returned my peacoat ^^ <3 so happy. Now, i have money to buy bags, belts, shoes, and accessories ( knit hats, mittens, bracelets, ect.. =)

GOALS before winter break :

- Get bagsss ; school or weekend. I really need some !
- Study, work harder, do homework first when i get home
- Limit myself to shopping
- Sleep more ( stressing out )
- Be a nice person/friend to everyone around me =) I'm improving ^^
- Get on my dad's good side and help around the house ( don't make my parents mad at me )
- SAVE MONEYYYYYYYY to buy myself a new computer -.- almost 1month computerless.

Sunday, Dec 5, 2010

Woke up at like 10:30? Got ready and my dad promised me to go to H&M; <3 ^^ We yum cha @a place near Serramonte. It was raining reallly hard. :( Went to target, me and my sis want the new itouch 4g! and my bro wants the ipad. LOL ! we have like hella old ipods at home already. my bro has like an itouch 3g, ipod classic, and the chromatic. My sis has the nano. I got none; it's cause i dont want it. I always have this feeling like i want the newest one, but apple has a new product coming out every year, so i'll never have the newest one. LOL. Then yeah, went the wrong way to H&M -.- so i just stopped by Forlove21 and checked out the bags. ( i already knew the bags there were a rip off ) i just wanted to take a look. Then went into H&M, couldn't find any cute bags, but i saw the mittens that was knit outside and fleece inside. It was really warm forsure :) I saw the navy peacoat in a size 4! i knew i had to purchase it ^^ So yeah, i was honest and i paid everything myself :) i also returned my grey rhinestone midsleeve cardigan. i didn't like it THAT much o.o so yeah. I'm planning on wearing the oversized navy peacoat tomorrow and just take it off and return it. I know it will be cold, so i'm planning on wearing hella layers underneath. :) oh yeah, i just realized there's a H&M near the stop i'm getting off; &instead of getting off a stop earlier than my original and walking 3-4 blocks to my bus stop. ^^ i'm happy. except homework and finals. i hate school ( maybe just lowell ) i swear, that school. Besides all the benefits, people, and all the fun activities, that school is crap. LOADS AND LOADS of homework, classes boring as fuck, you sleep late b/c of all the homework, so you can't pay atention in class cause you tired as fuck, homework from every damn subject everyday. Yup, i already know i'll have a crappy education from there. -.- i have a feeling i'm going to be the dumbest there and an idiot. @presidio i tried and all but not very hard, got As; Lowell = try hella fucking hard and get a B. You HAVE to work for the A. Oh, and if you don't get something, people there most likey won't help you out, and homework wise, you most likey won't find someone that would let you copy off of. Just saying, they only worry about their own grade. Yuppp, just my lil rant. :) googd night !

I'm Sorry i haven't blogged in awhile :( I've been sick and finals are coming up >.< I'm no where near ready and my cold isn't helping. Anywayss, i DID go shopping for coats and sweaters a lot lately. ^^ I got a black peacoat ( not double breasted), a black military style peacoat with black buttons ( double breasted ), a dark navyish peacoat ( double breasted ), a dark grey sweatshirt, and a brown chunky cableknit sweater. ^^ I've been wearing a lot of new shit lately. HEHEHEH ^^ Today, i got a new pair of shoes from H&M; it's full black ( $5 ) I'm in love. I wore my booties today, and it hurted my feet, i don't think i'll ever wear it to school anytime soon :(  I'll blog later if i feel like it. Jersey Shore is very addicting :P

Monday, Nov 29, 2010

Today was really boring, tiring, and long :( I hate dislike this girl in my gym and reg. Her face is deformed, in my opinion anyways and her eyes are chinky as fuck, she pacts on load and loads of makeup everyday, and she's FAT. We were playing knock-out, a basketball game, and i was out, but then she told me to get in line anyways and just continue playing, then i knocked her out, so then she's out. She was being a total bitch about it. She was like "cheater cheaterrrr! " Then i told her to get back in, then her fucked up face was like " i don't play with cheaters." Girl, whatthefuck is up with your attitude. Your fucked up, fake, and a fucking hyprocryte. Get some personal therapy. I hate her and she has to eat breakfast with me and Patricia. UHG, bitch. I WILL NOT EAT ANYMORE BREAKFAST WITH YOU FROM NOW ONE. It was freaking cold ass shit and she wanted to shit outside. Are you fucked up in the head? i was like no, i'm going to sit in the Cafetaria. She was acting all annoying. I thought to myself, you could just leave you know. -.- But yeah, i'll confront her next time if she follows us. In reg, she sits behind me, i hate her. She doesn't even know me and she's already criticsizing me. SHOE COPYER. I don't even fucking wear it anymore cause you're wearing it, you made it look disgusting. You wear it EVERYDAY for the whole week, do you not have any other shoes? the hell. &you don't wear socks, so you sweat like a pig, and you wear it 7days a week. ewwww, you nasty. Ms. Lo was a bitch to me today. I hated her. enough said. I have always hated her. Thank god only 2 more weeks left. I'm just scared i can't deal with her for another 2 weeks. -.- Lunch was boring, i can't wait for a new schedule and new classes. I'm having lunch with CINDY ! <3 ^^ Bio, i don't get any shit, Lowell is practically self-taught. I didn't get anything he said today. he lectured and it was boring as fuck. He tried being funny, but it didn't work. LOL ! Art, is alright as usual. Chinese is always fun for me i guess. Test on Wednesday tho :( This time i don't have Yong next to me -.- I'll def study for this one :) Geo was a pain. I was so glad it was short. Nothing POSITIVE happened today. This might be one of those BAD weeks. Just 2 more weeks, i can do it ! Going to wash my face, pick an outfit, and sleep.

Just came back home <3 I'm happy even thought i didn't get my white/black peacoat. I got a pair of heeled booties from Agac'i =) it was already on sale and then the lady gave me another 20% off because of the pen marking and it was the last one in my size too ^^ Omg i was so happy. Oh yeah, my mom paid for me too :) Then i went into For love21 to get some circle scarves. I got a brown and a cream one. I was pissed after i noticed how jenny got cheaper ones than me -.- I was like whatevers, i like it anyways =) Then went to H&M to return my jacket. Hehehe ^^ got back store credit tho. =) you can say today was sucessful and my dad gave me some $$$ :D Yum cha was awesome too :) Food tasted amazing ! I likeeeeeeee it ! I am so ready for tomorrow; just need a white/cream peacoat or a black one, then i'm so happy. Maybe more scarfs and some leg warmers would be nice ^^ Mhk, going to help out my parents since they've been so AMAZING <3 ily guys =) Then wash some clothes, shower, do some more HW, then sleeeep.

YEEEEEE ! omgggggg, my dad just came into my room saying he'll buy me my peacoat ^^ OMG I LOVE HIM ! I am sooooo happy right now :) YE YE YE !! ^^ Serrrramonte here i comeeee. <33333333333

Sunday, Nov 28, 2010

Yum cha with the Family. I really want to go to Serramonte and buy more shit :( I'll ask my dad and hopefully he'll bring me. He's done so much for me already, i kinda feel bad if i ask too much. Oh, my report card came too -.- i didn't improve at all and got even worse than last time. UHG fml :( I'm asking so much from my dad and i'm not giving him anything in return, i feel BAD D: I'll work SUPER hard this last semester, ESP on GEO >.< I hope i'll commit to this :) I'm going to wash up, then update you guys more when i get back ^^ Have a nice day before school starts :D

I'm still not satisfy after going to greatmall on Black Friday. I still want more stuff like knit hats/beanies, SCARVES!! ( circle, infinity, regular, whatevers; i just need scarves to survive the winter ), gloves/mittens, a fringe boot, another pair of sneaker, a white and black peacoat, and some loose sweaters. Hopefully during my winter break to Vegas, i'll shop more @fashion show & @townsquare ;) I'm looking forward to it ! omggg ^^ so excited. I somewhat felt that my Black Friday was unsuccessful compared to Steph and Viv. UHG ! :( Oh wells, they HAD already experienced Black Friday and Greatmall more, so their more experienced and knew basically where everything was. To be honest, it's my first Black Friday and my 4th time @greatmall. okay, going to finish up my mowo hw, jersey shore, nad shower. ;) g'night all !

Saturday, Nov 27, 2010

Stayed home all day catching up on the Jersey Shore. Cleaned my drawers; took out my old clothes and replaced it with my new clothes :) just tidyed up my room, folded my clothes tooo. OMG ikr. ^^ just watched more Jersey Shore. It's so funny; i love ' The Situation!' I hope i'll go shopping tomorrow with my sister, i really want a VS pink sweatshirt >.< & hopefully Serramontee for Agac'i, Charlotee Russes, H&M, or Nina's. :) I still want so much stuff after shopping @greatmall. Lesson learned : Don't go to friggen' greatmall ever again on Black Friday. It's crowded as shit and you even have to line up to get into stores, like wtf? -.- Places like Serramontee would've been great or downtown. I really want that white peacoat from Charlotte Russes that viv has ! It's so pretty & it's so my style. >.< Might tell my dad to help me order cause my mom's being a bitch on ordering online. She'll reject all orders with my sister and my name on the package. So hopefully my dad's credit card? ;) Mhk, more Jersey Shore, then shower, try on more outfits, wash clothes?, and maybe watch more Jersey Shore, then sleep. I HAVE TO WAKE UP EARLY TOMORROW.

Thursday, Nov 25, 2010 -Friday, Nov 26, 2010

Woke up super early and got ready to yum cha :D Family bomding time <3 jenny didn't wanna come, so yeah. &andy was at a sleepover. i was alone with my parents. It was alright :) We ate dim sum, omgggg i haven't ate that in sooooo long >.< it tasted amazing :p My parents saw old friends and just talked. (the resturant we went to is owned by my dad's friend) Then yeah, left and i went to office with my mom while my dad went to some place to discuss business. Grandparents bought food and stuff. We're having thanksgiving dinner w/ them :D They made my favorite asian soup <3 along with a lot of other side dishes. YUM. i chilled on my grandparents' bed and went on andy's comp. saw some youtube shit about chinatown's history &turns out my parents kinda have some relationship with them. it was creepy O.O then yeah, my dad left to finish some business thingys while my mom drove us home. it was planning to sleep but i was tooo excited >.< so yeah, i stayed up till my dad came home at like 10:40? and greatmall opens at like midnight. <3 Greaaaatmallllll ! there was traffic going inside the parking lot. my dad just dropped us off and i ran stright to h&m. there was a fricken line already -.- i lined up all the way back to neimen marcus. wtf right? i was hella hurrying and i'm like the 200th person? so i just told jenny to follow me and shove our way to the front. Ehh, didn't work so well. hella people, couldn't even move, and i'm hella short which wasn't good. all i saw was people's back -.- i went on the wrong side ( the boy's side) FML. so yeah. when i got to the girl's side, nothing much was left or i didn't like the things. i just got the leather jacket that i ahve in black but this was in like camel? i was like ehh why not? just $10 and a poodle sweatshirt for $5. i didn't like it that much, might as well return it later on. still unsure. the line was long as fuck. waited hella long. -.- i was so impatient that i was just gonna drop everything and just leave. payed, and tried looking for jenny. that nigga couldn't explain well. i went back and forth 2 times to find her ass. fianlly found her and yeah. waited in line with her again until my bro called telling me their outside of h&m. i just went outside and yeah. i showed them what i got and they were impressed. :D i wanted to go to amercrombie with my dad. my mom didn't wanna wait for jenny so she came along. other than going to abercrombie i also wanted a pair of nike sb that i kept on seeing on tumblr. I went into finish line, foot locker, ect. and turns out they don't sell them anymore. i was like wtf? then how do people on tumblr get them -.- so yeah, i went inside forever, i actually liked something but the line, omfg. fuck it, nonono ! longasstime all the way back of the store. i was like screw that, i'm leaving. met up with jenny, ect. went into stores after stores and finally saw abercrombie. :) got a pair of shorts for 10$ ( abercrombie shorts, good quality, usually range form 20-40$) and i wanted to get them for the longest time already >.< and also a cropped shirt. was gonna leave afterwards after 5hours of shopping. my dad bought a 7$ clock LOOOL ! now, we finally left. outside was cold as shit :( drove home, and somehow i crashed there and never woke up except going to my bed upstairs. O.O woke up at like 12? ate breakfast and now just sitting her on my computer till my dad pick me up and go to downtownnnn ! more shopping yay :D <33 love you dadddddy ! mhk, gonna get ready so i can leave when he's back :) I'll update my friday more later :o

Tuesday, Nov 23, 2010

I am SO thankful that Thanksgiving break is here. Waited so long for this ^^ Relaxing time, chill, shop, & on FRIDAY; it's BLACK FRIDAY babbby ! it's my 1st black friday. <3 :) I'm so excited hehehe ^^ I'm literally gonna shop till i drop on that day, i even have all the stores i want to go to planned :D I'm just hella scared that all the deals will be gone or my sizes aren't left >.< I'm like xs in stores or 2 in h&m :( Biggg dealks everyoneeee, so check it out ^^ Oh yeah, a recap of my day. It was COLD today -.- Thanks god i wore my abercrombie peacoat and jenny's striped scarf, my white shoesss that i'm in love with <3 ^^ It was alright in the morning, don't need to dress for gym, went to auditorium for a gay/bully assembly. alritte i guess. Then moderworld, i just crashed in that class. no way in hella am i going to sit there an hour watching/ listening to a video plus i already listened to that "chris brown" guy talk about his life being gay and his experiences. boring asss shit so i was like fuck no. It was so funnny today, in mowo, hella people just slept. But i love how he's so chill, he doesn't wake you up or yell at you. :) CHILL, NICE ! since i was sitting in the front, hahaha ( literal front ) me and amy just put our head down the whole time and woke back up when class ended, funny shit ^^ REG, uhg ! i hate her now. she's so annoying and thinks she's so cool. no shut up bitch. and stop fucking cussing and acting all ghetto, your from china. I'll fucking flip your ugly deformed face over, you fat bitch. &i beat your ass in speed okay? stop triyng so hard, you fail. :) fucking bitch. ms fucking lo. We got no party -.- got into a circle and say something you're thankful for and then say something nice about someone. funnny, okay, so when helena's talking, everyone; esp the boys, just clap hella loud, so loud that overlaps her screaming voice, then she has to stop. and everytime she starts, the boys just start clapping all over again. I didn't even bother going with the crowd, i just start laughing so hard i was about to cry xD ahh, love you guys. then yeah, it was embarrasing b/c i didn't know what to say :( then yeah, lunch. it was crappy and i hate karen. i just hate her personality. -.- so in general i dislike her. she laughs weird, and she always talk shit about someone whenever she's with me or about her grade. so annoying. uhg! so yeah, i just went to stones, chilled, met up with joanne. Then bio, boring class, i . am. not. going. to. take him. again. LOLS! okay, so i have a free-mod or 'swing mod' however you want to call it. so yeah, i got a meeting with my moderworld teacher about my essay grade, so yeah i went there and he helped me out and how i was gonna raise my grade. he didn't really help me that much as he did with jennifer -.- i should've been first >:( oh wells. & i felt like i did a better job than her. hers made no sense. i used better grammar and a better choice of words than her. hmph! it tooked more time than planned, so he gave  me a pass. went to art, i like that class :) saw cindy and brianna having lunch, thoses dorks <3 ^^ yup, went to class, took the attendence strip to unmark me absent ect. explained why i was late to the people around me. just TALKED TALKED TALKED as always in that class. barely draw today, i didn't feel like it >.< mehhh. Chirese hehehe ^^ i went first for the presentation thingy, i'm so proud of myself. got a 90%, still surprised.she always have high expectations from the first group, so yeah. I talked in chinese,  just can't help it, it's so untalkable. how can you not talk and laugh in that class? it's IMPOSSIBLE. i love everyone in that class, well except some -.- they should know who, i show it hella. then yeah, made hella jokes. Ms. li likes me now :) but she gave me a few looks cause i was too loud. today was short too :( then Mr.Evans. I feel like he's a good teacher but he doesn't cover the homework we do in class. But i FINALLY get it. yay for me. afterschool, class rep meeting with the student council. Went w/ Jordan since we're in the same reg. waited for him outside his classroom. he took forever in congress. lesson learned; not gonna go with him next meeting. :) meeting: outside the auditorium, it was aiteee. Got cookies, it was yummy thankkkks <3 ^^ introduced ourselves and hahah they skipped us so whatevers :) talked about fundraising for the class and stuff. it was nice and cool. It was a short meeting and there was hella time left so i just went to bridge. Won 2 games ahahaahahahhh i'm a novince too :) kinda proud. Ate brownies there, so i was sort of full on my way back to office. &shit, this is taking hella long. I'm just gonna end it here. mhk, peace guys. :)

Oh.My.God

Just finished my 5 chapters of Haroun -.- ( a test tomorrow ) & my essay ( a first draft that has to be typed ) Wtf shit is that>? forreals ms.lo? whatever, i'm off to take a shower, PEEEEEE >.<, and a new outfit. peaceeee !

Just because somebody flirts with you, Doesn’t mean they like you. Just because somebody likes you, doesn’t mean they wanna go out with you. Just because they wanna go out with you, Doesn’t mean they love you. Just because somebody loves you, Doesn’t mean they won’t hurt you. Because people lie, things change. boyfriends cheat, & “Bestfriends” ditch. And there are always gonna be those people who would kill to see you fall.

H&M

is my TOP 1 favorite store. It starts with their style, which i'm obsess with, to the fashion, their quality ( it beats F21 ), and their customer service; it's outstanding. I'm so happy i finally started shopping there like last month? ^^ I even remember going in for the first time in months. It was after school and i was bored, i just decided to walk in, and BOOM i fell in love. H&M never really got my attention even thought they have like 4 stores in my area. 2 in downtown ( one inside the mall &one outside ), 1 @ stones, which is near my school, and a new one that just opened on Nov.4th @ serramontee. I keep asking myself why haven't i REALLY go inside and shop ? I just go in when there's no other stores that are good. You guys are godly, everything a girl need in there. I never really payed attention to you guys and just went crazy over Forever21, A&F, and all thoses expensive shit. You guys run in small sizes and great quality, and isn't that over priced. You guys were there all along, i just never realized it till freshmen year started. I'm a nuthead to not figure out how amazing you are for so long. Sometimes the thing you need is there, we just never realize it.

you don't know me;

I’m a liar because I won’t tell you everything. I’m stupid because sometimes i’m wrong. I’m ugly because my face isn’t perfect. I’m a pushover because I like making people happy. I’m a loser because I’m not friends with your group. I’m fake because I’m too nice. I’m weird because I’m not like you. I’m fat because I eat when I’m hungry. I’m clingy because I don’t like to be alone. I’m insecure because I care about what people think of me. I’m no fun because I’m not always hyper. Don’t try to tell me who I am because i already know.

So cute !^^

I think its cute when your about to leave and a guy goes “No Hug?” 

I want a boy who would hold my hand in line at the mall & make all the girls jealous. I want someone who would sing to me at random moments. Someone who is more goofy than romantic. A boy who would throw stuffed animals at me when I’m acting dumb. Someone who would bet me kisses that he could beat me at all the old playstation games and then let me win. A guy who would make fun of me just to hear my laugh. He’d play with my hair all the time & surprise me with 25 cent rings. Someone who I could share lollipops with & lay on a blanket with to count the stars. We’d buy tons of disposable cameras to take the silliest pictures of each other & squirt water guns at each other in the house. But mostly ; someone who would be my best friend & would never break my heart. He would just always make me smile.


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just went through tumblr amd saw hella cute/relatable posts &i just had to put it on my blogger :)

Girls aren’t going to talk to you first.
It’s a girl thing.


We don’t like starting the conversation because we like to feel like you want to talk to us.


We like to feel like the wait was worth something.


We like feeling like you’ve waited for us like we’ve waited for you.


But the number one reason we hate talking first is because we hate to seem needy or clingy.


That’s why we’re scared.


Cause to us, being needy and obsessive just pushes guys away.

And no girl wants that feeling.

Just because I looked at you doesnt mean I stared you down. Just because I talked to your boyfriend doesnt mean I’m flirting with him. Just because I mention your name doesn’t mean I’m talking shit about you. Just because I don’t want drama doesn’t mean I’m a pussy. Just because I have the same shirt as you doesn’t mean I’m copying you. Just because I yelled at someone doesn’t mean I’m a bitch.

Wednesday, Nov 17,2010 - Friday, Nov 19, 2010

Just finished eating, i'm hellla bloated ^^ hella good food tho <33 Oh yeah, my parents leaving to vegas over the weekend. that's why they got us hella food, hehehe :) !

11/17/10

I think i left early? O_O i went to h&m ( the one inside Westfield first) picked up the pink sweater i wanted to get !! :D Also went inside Abercrombie and returned 2 things from my order. I was surprised how they returned shipping too ! omg =o i was like omggg yay ! :)Then headed over to Forever21 and returned my purple pullover, i didn't like it that much -.- , and went inside Sephora to return my brush ( i got a new one& there was no need for 2 ) :) then finallly i went to h&m, the one outside; and got back the brown sweater i wanted that wasn't on sale on Monday. Now, it's on sale, cool ehh? ^^ yup, a thickass brown sweater for $7 <3 happppy.

11/18/10

I left early on Thursday too, like really early o.o walked to the bus stop, stupic Bithiah's getting a ride back home now -.- so she's no longer walking w/ me :( Rode alone, and got back at like 4:12 o.o SUPER early ! I went into F21 to waste some time, and little did i know, i took hella long >.< For once, @F21 this one peacoat/jacket/trench coat/whatever you call it fit me perfectlyyyyy ! omggg i was so happy, the neckline was perfect too. But it was on the pricey side :( So i didn't get it, and stalled in h&m. I STILL love everything in there, despite the fact that everythings expensive ( to me that is -.- ) I finally checked out their shoe section & boyyyy i fell in LOVE <3! Their sneakers, so darn cute and so darn cheap ! ^^ Gotta have them. i picked up a $5 white canvas shoe. It looked just like the Vans one, but a little different. Still, $5 ?!?! where will you find that offer? Forreals, and they also had grey [ which i might get next :)], black, and white. [ it's different from mine though, i don't have the zipper on the side ] Then yeah, i left. Rode the bus back to office, i was early. Not really early but it was earlier than normal cause this whole week and last week i came back past 6 :(  I was TIRED as shit. Walked up 5 freaking hills to get the car, then i crashed in the car. picked up my bruhh, and never woke back up evne when i got home. Which i regret now, cause i didn't study for 2 tests :( I think i bombed both of them today -.- my life is so sad right now :( mhk, on to friday.

11/19/10

Meeting schedule babbbby ! yesterday when i crashed at 7:30 in the car and woke up at like 8:00 in the morning, i'm still sleepy. woah right? after that long of a nap. Lowell students under such stress :( i felt like i bombed 2 test. Both of them were scantrons too >.< regular ass day. Looked at the clock as it went, and thank god it was short today :) I went straight back to office when school ended. I saw my uncle from lincoln. ahhaha, i bet he didn't recognize me ^^ but w/e. I'll see him in the spring soon enough. :) why can't thanksgiving break come already? takes. so. fucking. long.

Woah, i just realized that i haven't blogged in 3 days. ekkk >.<  I'll post later, right now i'm hungry as fuckk -.- BRB !

Tuesday, Nov 16, 2010

I ate the best spring rolls everrrr xD !

Monday, Nov 15, 2010

I went to stones afterschool and got so irritated after i spent so much time there -.- i got nothing. i have no idea where my h&m girftcard went >:( i think my sister took it -.- fuck her ! the the items i wanted weren't on sale. UHGGGG. so pissed. When i was riding the M with emily, that lady had body odor, ewww :( I got off at powell b/c i was sad that i didn't get much stuff from h&m, so i went inside and wanted the brown sweater type thing. &that wasn't on sale either; took hella of my time -.- i left without anything but a waste of my time. I went back to office and my mom left, i was hella scared cause i didn't bring my phone >.< Rushed out in the morning and forgot :( so yeha i used the bakery lady's phone and my mom told me to wait outside for her. waited hella long but w.e its all my fault. and stupid h&m. uhggg -.- then yeah, i crashed in the car. picked andy up. he got into some sort of trouble and shit. parent conference with him being involved with beating up a kid. then yeah, woke me up and i ate some stuff. now i'm at home an hour later blogging on blogspot. ^^

Sunday, Nov 14, 2010

Staying home allllll day. I opened my books and notebooks w/ pen ready. I stared at it, and turned back to my computer. wtf? -.- true procrastinator. fuckkk. Its almost time for me to sleep. yah, i wanna sleep early now :)

Friday, Nov 12, 2010

Today was suppose to be somewhat... a good day, but i was crestfallen at the end -.- To start off my morning, we ran around the school ( our school is pretty big ) and lost two pickleball game >:( But we got to play someone; i feel more comfortable around him now :) Everything was good, going smoothly as excepted since it's a friday. It should be chill right? yup, got a  resonable amount of homework; rode the M. I made it on time for my bus ! yayyy ^^ As usual, went to downtown, this time was to return my Abercrombie jacket :) &since H&M had to be NEXT door, i couldn't resist going in >.< I really like 3 of the sweaters <3 but i only bought 2 cause the other one was just too expensive >:( So yeah, a downfall -.- I'll get it back next week, i hope it's still there with my size :) then yeah, i went to the other H&M to return my things. My REAL reason was just to go in to 'that' h&m cause that one has more stuff and yeah, you know. ^^ i got a leather jacket for $15, omg yayyersss ! :D Return my items and got store credit, i forgot to remove the tags, fuckkk me -.- I rode the bus back to my mom's office. &guess what? My Forever21 package that i've been waiting for the whole week was rejected by my mom. OMFG >:((((((((! She said she'll reject all packages sent to her cause she said i waste too much $$ and stuff. FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK ! thoses bagggs were on sale and it's off the website now. So i was hella fucking pissed -.- I e-mailed F21 how i still want my package that it was rejected by my mom not me, &that i was the one who paid for it. That didn't really quite work cause they don't reply to ANY e-mails after 6 p.m. & i was 11 minutes late -.- Now, i'm tracking the order online, and it has been departured from S.F going to L.A now :( i'm so saddd, i hope i can still get my package back >.<

Thursday, Nov 11, 2010

Went to DT today, i was bored so yeah. Went to H&M; as always. I still couldn't find the leopard print leather jacket. :( I found something like it.. i bought it but i'm not in love with it. On the other hand, i LOVE the sweater i got. It's black, midsleeves, and pink bow with black lace over it :) so cute ^^ I went to Gap and see if there were fringe boots that i saw on a recent blogspot. Turns out i didn't find any :( It was still early and i didn't want to return back so early and just sit there. So i went to another h&m that's inside the mall. I looked around, ehh, it wasn't that big, but i found some stuff i didn't find at the other h&m, so all good. :) i got a beige pinkish tulip top, looks pretty tucked in or a banded shirt over it w/ a cardigan ^^ ! I gave up, i found find the leather jacket :( I bus back, it took forever cause it's veterans day and no school/most people didn't have to go to work/sales were going on/ect.. so it was loaded with people. Thank god i had a SEAT ^^ A lady told me to get up when i had no place to stand, so how can i stand up? didn't make sense. i just kinda ignored her and told her how theres no space. pshhh, :) i think i saw someone from Lowell D: Yah, i would recognize him -.- he's kinda cute tho. >.< ekkkk !

I want my hair like this ( i mean the parting of my bangs and everrything)

Wednesday, Nov 10, 2010

Rode the M with jane-kayeee; it's been hella long since we bus together o.o I got off at Powell to return my H&M stuff. I went in there, and i fell in love with that store all over again. I love love love H&M ! ^^ <3 my baby ! I was trying to look for the $14 leather jacket that Vivian hauled 3 weeks ago. It has the leopard print on the inside and is hemmed on the waist. That kind of jacket usually range form 20-30$. I was determined to find it, but all i found was blazers with the leopard print. :( I hope they restockkkk! When i hnting for the jacket, i had to get some of the cute ass cardigans i saw along the way right? ^^ so yeah i picked up 3, heheh ! so pretty. i have so many new clothes now, i'm so happy :) All i need right now is some peacoats and big jackets to last me during the winter time. I can't find any that fits me well and is in my budget range -.- i'm a student after all, that doesn't have a job but yearly red envelope money, birthday cash, and small allowences monthly O_o It seems like it's not that bad, but birthday cash and small allowences doesn't even sum up to $100. Only yearly, since i'm asian ( chinese to be exact ), i get red envelopes from relatives and family friends, but it usually ranges from 300-500 if i'm lucky. Think about it, only $500 to spent in a year. that's impossible, for me that is, cause i love shopping. >.< So yeah, i seek to find great deals and such that fits me perfectly. I'm 5'1 and 90 pounds; super skinnier than those petite bloggers even thought we're on the same height and weight range O.O I think it's cause i'm a kid still, so yeah. But srsly, it's so hard finding clothes that fit you really well. &since you never know, i might still grow. So i always debate on whether i should buy a bigger size or the perfect size depending on how frequent i wear it. Omg, i've been off topic for so long now -.- Okay, so i failed at finding the leather jacket, i left after purchasing the 3 cardigans, and rode the 8x. Went home really late cause we have to get the car and pick up my sister @7:30, and it takes 30 mins to get back home. Thank god there's no school tomorrow, VERTERANS DAY BABY ! ^^ What perfect timing, my F21 order is arriving today :)

Went to club. Left early cause the school wanted everyone out by 5:20, so yeah left early. got on the 17 when i walked there ! woohoo ^^ I got off @ powell to buy my brush for my foundation; so yeah, i went inside Sephora, asked the lady for help. OMFG, the freaking small ass brush is $28 bucks -.- I'm gonna find another one and return that shit, forrreals. & as always, i could never resists not going into H&M -.- fuck me. But omfg, it was heavens in there. Bought 4 cardigans for &20 ^^ so happy! I have so many new clothes <33 so fucking happpppppy, just school making me feel like shit now. I hate my geo grade -.- I love their cardigans; their so classy chic, the soft delicate feel, thats sweet and vintageyy. I'm in love. My fav store, everytime i walk past F21, i'm like fuck you, H&M all day everyydaay. =) it's cheaper for me too. ^^ Then returned stuff @ walgreens. Omg, it was raining like shit when i walked out of H&M. :( So yeah, walked to the bus stop. O_O I also found new gym clothes ! :D My sister's handmedowns were crappy -.- all fucking big and has tint of grey when it's suppose to be white. so yeah i found new ones lying on the floor in the morning <3 ! ^^ Happy happy happy day except the geo quiz. i died inside when he said the answers out loud. :( Got home pretty late. YES ! might not dress for gym tomorrow :) Rainy day schedule ^^! She's passing back our pickleball quiz o.o i hope i got like 2 wrongs at most >.< I'm so excited, i have like hella new outfits to wear <3 ;D mhk, gonna wash, eat, sleep, and clean my room up. peace !

Tired daaay. Geo test tomorrow, i'm thinking about crashing right after i eat and shower and fix my clothes :x I'm having waaay too much clothes now, shopping is so addicting >.< Bought another lace cardigan for $10, it's so cuteeee, and 2 shoulder lace poofy mid sleeves top ( one black and one cream) i'm obsess with lace nowadays O_O i hope it doesn't go out of style though, and a plain black puff shoulder shirt, i was thinking about wearing that with a skirt, it'll be so cute ! ^^ I got a new foundation; but now i need to buy a brush. Rode the M home, i saw Emily on the way. LOL, yeahhh, kinda talked and stuff o.o i still feel awkward around her after so many years apart. She's really SMART lol. Srsly, really smart. She's doing better at Lowell than me. O_O i feel... like i suck and somewhat fell behind. :( better start doing good in school now >.< mhk, gonna clean up my clothes, and eat, shower, pick a new outfit, and crash. PEACE ! <3 =)

Sunday, Nov 7, 2010

Just came back from Serra, omg. I LOVE LOVE LOVE h&m there. Hella sales, not even kidding, check it out. i got 2 sweaters from there, total 27$ ^^ hehe, i love them so much. one cream with some designs near the collar bone and a floral one. <33 Then i went to hollister, yeah i know, everythings hella expensive there. But my dad was like that's the ONLY store that fits you ( in his opinion) So yeah, bought a CUTE cardigan from there, it has lace down the middle ^^ <333 LOVE ! but it was expensive O.O 37$, eeek >.< Then we went into Ninas, there it got me hella piss -.- There was this jacket that was like 30% off few weeks ago, and now it's not, so i just ripped off the 30% off thingy and sticked it on mine. When i went to pay, they were all like nonononoononono it's not. i was like well.. few weeks ago it was on sale, my friend even got one, so why's it not on sale now? they yapped, and of course it was someone asian -.- ( omg, i didn't even tell you guys that story earlier today about paying our phone bills) so yeah, we left, and went to target. FUCK you ninas, i'll just wait till its on sale again. We went to target, i looked around for mens v-necks, but they ran out. :( My dad asked me to go to Ross and see if there's any coats i like. I love him, he knows i really wanted it but since it was such a rip off, he brought me to Ross. <333 love you daddddy ! &then we left, now i'm home blogging, and about to eat dinner. Trying to accomplish: Wash my gym clothes, shower, check tomorrow's weather, clean my clothes pile, finish typing Mowo homework, get ready for school, and sleeeeep. Uhg, i'm tired as fuck right now.


Okay, so before we went to Serramonte, we went to pay for the phone bills and cancel a phone. That fucking asian dude asked us for a password, we didn't know any password, so we're like idk. We payed monthly and they never asked us for a 'password' until this dude asked, it was a first -.- he was all yapping and shit saying how he can't access it. so my dad went to his friends cell phone store and got the password. we waited for him hella long -.- &then he finally came, gave my dad the PW, and we went back to the main store. This time we went to the girl, not the fucking asian guy -.- she didn't even asked us for any password, omfg. so that bitch wasted us hella time for nothing when we didn't even need it. FUCK HIM ! & at the end, we didn't pay the phone bills nor cancel the phones. Nothing accomplished but a waste of time. -.- that girl explain how if you cancel that one phone, you won't get the 4 for 100$ plan. so my dad decide to cancel the other one and keep the plan. but we don't have the phone with us now, so we have to do it tomorrow, which we have school. WASTE OF MF TIME>. kk, gonna eat now. hungry as fuck.

Sunday, Nov 7, 2010

I'm waiting for my dad to come back from San Jose and bring me to Serramonteeeeee! Omg, i need to go to their H&M as soon as possible. >.< I even finished typing my Homework, and he's still not back. I'm thinking of taking a shower, but i'm scared he'll be back and i'm not ready, then he'll be mad and won't bring me. -.-

Crashing hella early. Gonna drink some milk, brush teeth, and finally sleep. Hopefully i'll go to Serramonte tomorrow. I'm crossing my fingers.

Saturday, Nov 6, 2010

The day i was stuck at home alone while my siblings had practice and a competetion, my 1 year old Forever21 light blue Petite skinny jeans got a hole. :( i loved those jeans, it was truly amazing on me. It made my legs, so long and so skinny, and i was able to move so freely in them. It was comfortable, and the butt pockets were deep enough so that my money/fastpass/ect wouldn't fall out. I'll never get jeans like that ever again. R.I.P <3 thanks for the 1 year, it was amazing to have you. <3

She's flawless; i love her outfit.

I want my future Macbook to be like that =)

Teachers who doesn't let his students explain and starts assuming hella shit. FUCK YOU BITCH !

Friday, Oct. 29, 2010

Halloween @school today. loved the rally except i'm so short, i have to sit on a bench to see only barely -.- i didn't wear my geeky socks, tie my hair up in pigtails, or wear thoses 3D glasses. i'm such a fail and scared to try something new. :( i'm like still scared of my middle school past or something. w.e i hope i'll overcome that and change, cause who cares what others think. i met one of Amy's shadow, and recognized one of them, kathyyyyyy. their both from gallll, i NEED to visit there the next PD day forreals. Didn't go to art, went to rally. it was funny :) someone was the 'homeboy' guy from youtube. xD funny assshitttt! he was saying 'hide yo kids, hide yo wifes, and hideyohusbandcustheyrappingeverrryoneoutthere' in a hella ghetto voice then at the end it was hella fast. omgggg, that was like the best. when cindy, brianna, and bithiah was eating lunch, i just sat there looking at them. Somewhat, i felt uncomfortable :( thoses 2 guys were looking or staring >.< it's like they hate me or something. One's in my gym and Mowo, the other in my Mowo and english. We never talkkkkkk and just make eye contact, it got so awkward that i just got out my phone and started random texting. Whatevers, i hope they don't hate me....hopefully, or think i'm annoying. I'm beginning to like chinese now. Ms. Li is so nice to me now <3 She doesn't really yell at me when i talk out of turn or even at the fact that i can;t speak mandarin. For our presentation today, we sucked and read the whole thing. Kianna was hella show and stuttering so it took up to 2.34 minutes. &the requirement was 3.5minutes long. i was impressed too cause ours is hella short. she gave us a B cause she said we're special, but in reality i know we did hella bad, she just pity us. but thanks anyways Ms. Li ! :) all the good people, but they talk all got a C; i felt bad for them cause i contribute to the talking too and i got a pretty decent grade. o.o so yeah. Joanne was moved, ahahhahahahha. her lameass is in front of me now, yayyyyyy ^^ we just look at each other and laugh, i love her. &When she talks back to Ms. Li, it gets so funnnnnnnny xD &mitchell, that fagggg. always having 'fighting' conversations with Kim. i laugh hella when they just start insulting eachother, but Kim, overall, always win. she's so funnnny, i wish we were closer though :/ We got reg together, so 4years to go! :D Oh yeah, did i mention, i'm elected Reg rep? i didn't even know what was going on till the end when i won cause i was busy fixing the printers with Mr. Shapiro. i needed to print something out for Ms. Lo -.- then yeah, thanks guys ! love you alll. i promise i'll get to know you all by Senior year. <3 Tired as fuck today, i was like sleeping on the train back home. i want to fall asleep right now but i got makeup on, i didn't brush my teeth, or cleanse my face, or fix my god damn bed, & bring my dinner down. -.- Gonna go now, PEACEEEEEEEEEE!

Wednesday, Oct. 27. 2010

Today it was super cold in gym. i was shivering when running laps and the exercises, omggg hella cold and i think i'm sick now :( We played pickle-ball -.- it was kinda lame and the rules, uhggg. looked like shit today, didn't put on any foundation cause i forgot it at home -.- i just reapplied blush throughout the day. I have such bad skin -.- the foundation looks kinda pale on me, so i might buy the Mac's mineralized skinfinish foundation or just try it O_o Modernworld was boring as usual. just sat in the back and chilled. i LOVE the back. but if i move back, the front would look hella empoty lol. Reg :) played speed. i won both doubles games against Jordon and Yumin. but she won me in singles, hehe rematch tomorrow :) Ms. Lo; poemmmm. i still hate that one person in my class :) so freaking annoying, i hope he got the hint that i hate him. You have no idea how many rants/vents on my blogspot is about him. i need to stop wasting my time on that fucktard and just ingore him or think he's invisible. :) sounds like a good idea ^^ Lunch, it was warm that time omg. Bio, first time i felt like sleeping in that class. my eyes wanted to close on their own. >.< i tried drinking water to stay awake... Art is fun as usual. but i was down today, didn't talk as much. we went outside to spraypaint our word. i didn't like how mine turned out >.< whateversss. Chinese, omg. i hate kianna. she whines about how she sucks at chinese when she doesn't even try or take the time to STUDY at home. she makes me do everything -.- i want a new partner. hate her, so annoying. I told her to do the dialouge yesterday but nooo, she didn't want to, so i have to. &today i'm loaded with homework and  got home late. fuckkk her. i don't even know what to do with the presentation no more. & the thing she annoys the fuck out of me is when we walk to our locker, she has to walk hella close to me shoving me to the wall or bumping into me, like she HAS to walk next to me. dude, you can go ahead, but then she walks SLOW waiting for me. then i walk ahead of her, and she whines saying i don't wait for her. like stfu bch -.- i'm so tired of you. we were never bestfriends or near friends,you only said i was your bestfriend was i never said anything about you being mine. Geo, tesssst tomorrow :( going to fail it again no doubt. I'll try my best. i can't fucking study math cause i'm working on my dialouge and blogging at the same time -.- i just had to vent. rode the M. I was depressed so i went to h&m. bought 4 shirts. 2 blouses ( white ) , a wide flyaway looking shirt that's a crewneck, and a rigided neck shirt that's white. :) iuno, i might return the stuff. Tired as fuck and hungry afterschool. my mom went to a hotel near the airport to help deliver the food to the show people, then pick andy up at wash, then go to lee hou fu to deliver the food check papers, and pick jenny up from the law firm. omg, long ass day. i have to say, today was the MOST boring and the MOST tiring day @lowell that i had experienced. i know there's more to come, and i'm prepared. ^^ gonna wash my face, i picked my outfit heheheh ^^, and just sleep. screw the pressentation, it's short tomorrow for chinese anyways. peace guys, i'm so tired, gonna crash.

Tuesday, Oct. 26, 2010

Went to club for extra credit. So left at around 5ish? Went back myself. i was scared as fuck cause i paid back Yong her money and i forgot i had no money for the bus. so i jumped the bus :x like 3 times. One on the 17, then West Portal Station, and then the 8x. omfg, i feel so bad. every stop i was so scared and nervous. >_< i got off at Powell cause they don't check as often as Montgomery. When i got off, i saw my uncles, ahahah xD then i noticed i was riding the L, which Lincoln kids ride. Damn, they hella tall and tan. LOL! So yeah, went up the forever side. Then i decide to drop by Walgreens since i left my lip balm at my grandmas and i rarely see her except the weekends, and sometimes i don't even go out, so yeah -.- i CAN'T live another week without using one 5 times a day. Iknow, it's bad or something :( so yeah, got two of them, so if i lose one i have a spare one >:) Got the normal one and the Pomogrante one, yayyyyers! then went to the bus stop, and rode the 30. got off, went to mom's office and ate/ told jenny what happened about the not paying thingy >.< then we left and get the car to pick Andy up. He got a bike lol. then yeah. Didn't even start homework since i got home like 3 hours ago. i feel hella bad and it's like 10 something. :( procrastinating hella. Reading people's blogs, tumblr, facebook, and formspring. oh, and checking the weather :) ohmygodddd, hella homework. Lowell is killing me >.> mhk, gonna go now.

Monday, Oct. 25, 2010

Slept in the car; got home and just crashed ._.

Saturday, Oct. 23, 2010

Bio test canceled. Run-through on my Halloween costume. makeup, hair, and costume. Ate. Computer. Tried on new outfits. Oh, did i tell you guys? i started playing on my dad's laptop until he gets me a new one. teehee ^^ Going out to eat dinner, and fuck it's raining lol. i'll be back =)

i want my hair like this. but it'll never happen :(

Friday, Oct. 22, 2010

Stayed @school till 10:30? went to stones; forever, h&m and i was going to go to bath&bodyworks and wash my hands but i saw Yumin so i went with her to Mac. I'm deciding to get their Mac Mineralized Skinfishish Foundation, hehehe ^^ Then we went to Eat our dinner :) I bought panda express, yumm! she bought her freaking Sushi, that loser =o i left and met with jenny. We walked back to lowell the LONG way cause she didn't want her moccasins dirty, but i don't give a fuck about mines so yeah -.- Then we lined up for the play. Hecka long line already and we came at 6:30 and the play starts at like 7:30. I watched her eat her noodles. i showed her what i got at f21 and h&m. &she showed me what she got at Sephora. that poo, i'm jealous. hahah lol. We talked and talked and talked. then brian passed by and was all like' omggg hiihiihihihihihihiihihihihi!' (sorry, i'm venting now) and just waved without saying anything. He asked if he can back-cut, i was like no. he asked a couple more times. I said to myself, does he not understand English? i said no, so no's no. how hard is that? he needs to understand that's he's annoying and ugly. i don't like him. looking at his face annoys me and his personality wants to make me slap him. -.- so we went in and sat down in the backest row, so we can get our stamp and leave first :) he, out of all the places that he could sit, had to sit in my row. i was like fuckkkk you. &b/c of that i didn't feel comfortable watching the play the whole night. he keeps staring, and it's so freaking creepy. uhggg -.- Thank god i wasn't sitting next to him, he makes hella pointless remarks. but since he's in my row, he can hear it; he talks to freaking loud and when people laugh, he HAVE to fake his laugh and laugh the LOUDEST. now are't you annoying by his pure existence? -watches half the play- 15 minute break. it's like a bathroom break or something. Then he haddddd to get out my side and not the other side when his seat was much more closer. when he looked at me and nodded with his smile. -.- i just gave him a wtf look. he left, jordan came over. we talked and stuff and i rant everything about brian to him. he was like ahhahahah see he's fucking annoying. then his friends came over and talked to him o.o it was awkward cause i didn't know them. Jordan told them how brian was a fucking loner, blah blah blah &how he cried over a B+ and shit. we continued on and on until that 'person' came back and started talking to 'us'. -.- we were all quiet when he came. LOL! he wanted to get back to his seat my way again but Jordan was like; why can't you go the other way? don't you see how many people your bothering? i was like ahhahahahahah so true. but he coninued on, so i crossed my legs to let him through. and 1/4 of the way, he went back out my way. WTFFF is your problem? why didn you go back out? omfg, i so wanna bitch slap you. then he said to us,' oh, i'm gonna stay with you guys.' we were all like wtf? we gave him the get lost look. i just talked to jenny cause i didn't wanna look at him, while jordan and his friends talked. we ignored them, then he left THE OTHER WAY, not my way. thank god, that bitch better not make me cross my legs a second time. we finish the play, stamp our ticket, got my backpack, waited for mommy. went home, tried going on my computer but failed. -.- changed, brushed, and washed. My dad came back and talked to me. i told him how my computer broke down on me. he was like it's okayy, i'll buy you a new one :) he's so much more understanding than my mom <33 he was like it's been 5 years right? everything old will break. when i heard that i was like omggg, i love you so much for saying that. i even volunteered to pay half of it ; but it's only if i have enough. O_o i'm hella broke. i just slept and yeah now it's morning and i'm writing this.

i hate

people who cry over getting a B or just failed ONE test or assignment. It's not the end of the world, just try harder next time, you don't have to kill yourself. that's just stupid. Get over yourself. This week i recall a 'kid' crying in class and all emotionally depressed cause he failed his Hw assignment. Dude, chill. If you followed the instructions and listened to the teacher then you would've gotten full points right? but you didn't and now you cry over a 30 points assignment? wtf. i'm hella annoying by it. it's just one assignment you can always raise it back up. I've failed many tests and i'm still doing fine with B's or better yet A's; except geo, hate it -.- matttth, eww! lol back to topic, you don't have to be all whiney just to get attention like' omg i got a B+, my parents will kill me' B+ are you fucking kidding me? i'll be so fucking satisfied with a B+. I'm like hella happy with it okay? stop crying over an assignment or a B+, i get annoyed to see people like you. no matter why you don't have any middle school friends, that all hate you or some shit. You nerd. fuck you. i'm hella hyped and heated right now by writing this vent. You cry, omg it's not like someone died in your family or your dad kicked the bucket. your a man, and you cry? you don't see me , a girl cry.  lame ass shit.